Yesterday I went out with Elisha and Eric to the mall after work and I had such a great time. Elisha is such an awesome friend and I love it when we get the chance to spend time together. I got some new books too, thanks to mah Eric! ^_^ I also got my hair streaked red and I just love it.

We talked to the landlord and she said that I was approved all ready and we're just waiting to get Eric approved. She said it looked very good and we may be in our own place towards the end of the month. She said she would know for sure by Monday. So I'm really looking forward to that phonecall. My Mom said she was relieved to kmow that we would have a place to live since she and Dad are working on their plans to go to Flordia. Dirk IS going there for the summer at least, although I hope he does not come back. Not that it matters because I won't be living there anymore but still! Also my Mom said something about my aunt Brenda and Uncle DJ and her three boys staying at the house so they won't have to sell it. That would be so great because I don't want them to sell the house AND if Dirk comes home and starts shit, Uncle DJ can beat the hell out of him. ^_^

So life is pretty awesome and things are looking up. I was bummed out for a while last week over a friend and thanks again Stephen for letting me vent to you and talk to you. I really needed that. You're always there when I need you and I'm glad I can be there for you whenever I can.

I have accepted that my parents could move in June to Flordia and I'm not really as surprised/upset about it anymore.

I'm at a good point in my life. I'm working my ass off to save even more money and as tiring as it is, it's a very good feeling. Put in 38 hours this week. Hell yes. Can't wait for school to be done and over with so I can work even more and have some leisure time too.

Got inventory on Monday. Thank God, I'm only responsible for prepping it. I won't actually be there for it. Lots to do, totally exhausted, love you guys bunches.
BLC!!! Miss you guys loads. And Lissa, you can crash here if need be on the weekend we were discussing earlier.

Special shout-out for Murphy because I don't talk to him much anymore and I miss him! <3 <3 Murphy = teh awesomeness

So this morning the landlord called me up and asked if I was still interested in getting an apartment over there. I said "yes I am" and she wanted me to come down there and sign a paper so she could do a credit and criminal background check. I told Mom where I was going to go and she started talking about Dad needing to tell us something. So she called him and he said there would be a family meeting tonight. The last "family meeting" we had was years ago when my parents were splitting up temporarily. You can tell I was thrilled right?

They have decided that they are going to move to Flordia in June to obtain a business from my Uncle. This is a really awesome opportunity for my parents to make a lot of money and pay off the house in the next five years instead of the next twenty years. They basically wanted to know who wanted to go with them and who wanted to stay. Dirk wanted to stay home which caused an immediate fight between my parents. Mom said that she didn't trust him to stay in her house for five years while they were gone. Dad didn't see why she was making a big deal out of it and Dirk left the room muttering something about him following them like a dog. My sister and I were left sitting in the room with Dad in silence.

Finally things started rolling again and I basically said that I probably wasn't going to go, which Dad figured. We thought about letting Brezy rent out the house and Chad and Casey could live there too since they pretty much live with Brezy now. They make a lot of money and they would be able to pay everything okay and Mom and Dad wouldn't have to sell the house and they would have somewhere to come back to. I thought that was a great idea since I could still visit the house. It's part of my childhood and I really didn't want them to sell it in the first place.

Despite all the good, I'm still really upset by the whole thing. I don't want my parents to go away somewhere for the next five years. I know it's kind of selfish, but they've been with me my whole life and I always thought they'd be around during me moving out and such. I love my parents. Mom and I spent the day together today and it was really nice. But we probably won't get another chance to for a while. So I'm going to try and spend time with them whenever I can. I know a lot of people either don't have parents, or their parents suck ass, but mine are awesome. And we're really close.

It's just such a sad thought to me right now. My parents are going away for five years. Big adjustment.

But I may be getting my apartment soon! Silver lining and all that jazz.

I did a lot of different things since my last entry. I got sick and blarged everywhere, I went out with Eric on our Sunday and had a really fantastic time, and I met up with an old teacher I hadn't seen in over six years.

Eric and I went out to Waldenbooks to pick up more manga, as per usual, and we got loads of good manga, but I'm still waiting on several series issues to come out. Our manga collection is really growing and I love looking at all the pretty books lined up on our shelf. ^_^ We also got in Mai Hime today after getting it imported for real cheap and I can't wait to watch more of it. The first episode really sucked me in. I got some new tops too for work and a really cute (and a bit overpriced) skirt. I really love dressing up for work and I really like the way I look. It's a good feeling. :3

Today I met up with Rozzy Smith, a good teacher I had had ten years ago. He was still the same old Rozzy, but I feel like I could understand him in a way I couldn't as a child. It's like when you're a kid, half of the things adults say make no sense to you, but as you get older you actually have a good comprehension of the things they're talking about. He said he missed the way the school system was back in those days and that I was one of his favorite students. But I talked his ear off. ^_^;; Definitely a bit different from how I am now. I talk a tiny bit less. XD And I saw Mr. Jones too, who is extremely awesome. He got me a yearbook when my parents "forgot" to get me one. And it was free too! It was such a nice thing for him to do for me and I probably won't forget it since it's my only high school yearbook.

Anyway, so I met with my creative writer instructor Adrian. Yeah, he's Irish so talking to him is cool enough. He read one of my stories that I haven't shown to anyone (part of it anyway) and gave me some advice I hadn't really heard before. He thinks that maybe fiction isn't really what my writing genre should be. He thinks that while there is talent there, that I should write about things I have actually experienced, or things I know. I have thought of that before when someone once told me that the best writers write about what they know. For me, that's a small problem because I don't have too many real life experiences worth writing about. He says that I should find something "right to write about." Which I can see why. I've never really been able to finish a story and the majority of fictiony things I think up are cliched to some degree. There was a really awesome idea this Japanese writer put in his manga that I was so jealous over because it was such a neat idea. Sometimes I wish I could think of things like that, but maybe I'm really not meant to. I'm not sad or upset over it at all, but it really just gave me something to think about.

So my mind has been wandering around with all of random things that are happening in my life. Nothing really important has gone on besides last night I stayed up talking to Pesha. Man, really talking to her was nice because we don't really know each other that well and we got to know each other a little better. And I like her more because of it. There's more to her than meets the eye. ^_^

Life is pretty good. I remain an optimist. ^_^ Loves and hugs to you all!

I noticed this morning that I haven't been sleeping well these past couple of days. I keep waking up before my alarm clock and I'm beginning to wonder why. I haven't been going to bed any earlier and I don'y have any more than the normal stuff on my mind. At least, I think. Usually when I post in here things come out that I didn't know was there in the first place.

Still waiting on the call for the apartments. I will probably do that today if we're not too busy. I'm actually getting some tax money back and I swear I'm putting it up and not touching it for anything. That will be very useful when and if we get our apartment for buying groceries and such. I'm not as excited as I was, which is a good thing, in case it turns out that we just can't afford it.

But I DID get a raise at work and Sara gave me 7 more hours, which bumps me up to almost 30 hours a week! That's really all I wanted anyway. I said if I could just have 30 hours a week, it would make a huge difference. And combining that with my raise should really help. I think it sucks that Eric's parents are paying him so little for work. It's supposedly to compensate for them paying for his college, but that's a bunch of crap. It's just making things harder for me since I have to try and make more money for us. Not that I mind, but it's not like his parent's don't have the money to spare to give to him. I don't think they want him to move out and his father keeps pushing Eric to go to a four year school, which Eric does not want to do. =/ I'm just going to have to keep trying harder! *determination*

Things at the house are getting crazy. Mom tore into Dirk last night over food and being in her bathroom, annoying excuse for being mean, really. I'm so sick of them fighting all the time. And after she yells at him and leaves, I have to listen to him talking to himself and throwing a tantrum nextdoor to my room. It's SO annoying. I wish it would just stop.

Valentine's Day was really kind of a bad day for me, but Eric made it so much better. At work, or somewhere along the way, I lost one of my earrings! I only got to wear them for like three hours! I had just bought them not that long ago, so I was really bummed out. I'm hoping I can locate them at work today. Then I went to get my car inpsected at Rooster Bush since they had an awesome coupon that let me get it inspected for only 15.00. ^_^ But then they told me I needed new tires ad that I barely passed the inspection. -_- When I got home, Dad told me I still had 10k on those tires, in his opinion. Annoying peoples. But Eric came over and gave me a beautiful yellow rose and some fudge. (He gave me most of my Valentine's stuff on the tenth, our 34 month anniversary) And I just loved it. I also got to hang out at his house for a while and we had a really good time.

I also found my Heroes of Might and Magic III disc so I'm SO content with playing Heroes again. <3 <3

Other than that, that's it! Thanks for reading my rant and as always comments are loved and appreciated!

~Marci Marie~

Okay so I totally had to write this entry because some horrible crap and some good crap is going down...

Bad stuff first because the good news at the end will cheer you and me up!

1.) My best friend's mother had a couple of heart attacks. I saw her in the store today and she was like "has Elisha called you?" which immediately worried me because I hadn't heard from her in ages. So she told me about what happened to her and that Elisha hasn't really been the same since. You all know me. I was worried about her the rest of the day at work and finally got a chance to call her on the drive home. (We were SO slammed!) She sounded okay and she said the reason she didn't call me was that she "had a lot on her mind." Personally, I completely understood but at the same time was a little hurt that she didn't call me at all. I mean, when you have a lot on your mind don't you usually talk to a friend about it? And if something bad happened to your mother wouldn't you want a friend to be there for you? I understood how she felt, I really did, but I just felt so useless to her. I wonder sometimes if she really thinks of me anymore...I worry about her a ton. But if she has someone else to comfort her then that'd be fine. I just wish I knew so I could stop worrying.

2.) Randomly and with no warning my relatives got slammed with a tornado in their hometown in Flordia. Luckily they're fine with some damage to their houses (of course) and my aunt's neighbour was unfortuante enough to be killed by it. I hardly ever hear from then and this was so unexpected. I'm glad no one was hurt worse though.

Okay I think that's all of the bad. Now for the good!

So I THINK I might have found a suitable place to move out with my fiance. There's an apartment complex that is income based. I don't know ALL of the details other than the fact that you have to have decent credit to live there and the rent is based on what you make and what bills you're already paying and things like that. The apartments are not luxurious but they are NICE and not run down in the slightest. So while I'm still keeping my eyes open, I'm definitely leaning towards this place. I need to get my application in and be put on the 3-6 month waiting list. Which is plenty of time for me to get a full-time job so I can make some more moneys! Did I mention my sister only pays 10.00 rent a month? Not a hundred mind you, but TEN! I won't be that lucky, but I know it'll be cheaper than staying somewhere else.

So I'm really feeling like a weight has been lifted off my chest and that I may have a chance to get out of this rut. A chance at my new life with Eric! I can only hope this continues because I'm so tired of living at home.

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I'm just completely annoyed at the moment. Life in general is just pissing me off. Sometimes I wish I could put everything on pause and just start making things better for everyone, one problem at a time. I'm worried about some of my friends who are having tough spots in their life. And I'm doing everything I can do for them without forcing myself into their world and screwing everything up. There's only so many ways you can get involved without being a total bitch, y'know? One of my friends is confused to no ends and a few others are just SO depressed. It kills me that I can't do more for them. But I have too many issues for a specific friend just to come over and relax so the stress doesn't kill them. You know who you are if you're reading and I am so unbelievably sorry that all this uncontrollable crap is blocking what we want to do. I <3 all my friends so much!

I was looking at houses in some books the other day. My dream house in oak hill is for sale. 339,000.00 to be exact. -_- It bums me out that is was that pricey, but I couldn't afford it anyway without a full time job and a stable income. I think that would really solve a lot of my problems if I could just move out. I'd like to have a house but I have a feeling that because of financial crap I'll end up living in an apartment. Even that would be better than living at home and dealing with a bunch of crap. Living by my parent's rules is causing a lot of problems where I can't just go into my room and relax after working all day or being able to have my friends over who need a place to get away from their stress. And then I'll be able to see Eric more and not feel so lonely whenever he has to go home. It's crazy. If I don't get more hours by spring I will find another optical place to work at. I need to start my life and I'm STUCK!

I find going to work sometimes better than staying at home just because I can get away from the annoyance. At work there's always something to do or I can talk to Kristi. It's the kind of job that you work your ass off if you're slammed, but if you're totally dead then you can goof off! ^_^ So I really don't want to give that job up. It's just a place I've grown accustomed to and I enjoy it. But if it's going to cause my life to stay stuck in a rut because the DM won't give me more hours then I will leave. It's getting more difficult to be here.

That was just a small tip of the ice burg, but I needed to vent.

Gah, I have such a headache from hell. Been a while since I updated this thing, so I figured, why not?

School is decent, I suppose. My Brit lit 2 class has way too many people in it and I hope beyond hope that half of the class drops out. Too many people in a class sucks. A good highlight about school is that my creative writing teacher is Irish. And listening to him talk is SO friggin awesome. Have a mentioned I have a thing for accents? Not Southern ones, mind you. I like British, Scottish, and Irish accents a lot. I don't think I'm big on Australian accents as much. But I do like them. ^_^

My late grandmother's friend, now my friend, Sigrid is planning to take me hiking in South Mountain on the 20th if weather permits. Apparently, it's another place my grandmother went to and hiked very well at her old age. And Sigrid tells me that I'm a lot like her. And hearing that makes me want to know just who she really was. I realize now that I'm older that I didn't know that much about her and it really makes me kind of sad.

Eric and I are still doing good, for any inquiring minds. <3

That's it for now. Still working hard and still hoping I'll get a full time job!

~Marci Marie~

Cleaning up my LJ list because there's a ton of people on here I'm not sure are around or who really wants to be on here.

I'll keep all my RL friends obviously, so none of you have to comment. Comment if you want to stay or go, it'll make things quick and easy for me. Those who do not respond will be removed unless they're special.

It's funny how everyone has an opinion about how many gifts one should receive on Christmas. We have always done Christmas big and I think I shall post my loot:

PJ pants (Aunt Lynie)
Set of dishes (friend Ben)
Waldenbooks giftcard (Thomas brother-in-law)
Trauma Center (Eric's parents)
Chevy bear (Thomas)
Stufed white kitty plushie (Eric's parents)
Dragonology game (Aunt Lynie)
2 glass dragons (friend Elisha)
Scrapbook set (friend Kristi)
Dragon statue (friend Kristi)
handmade pouch - beaded (Aunt Debbie)
Smart Mouth game (cousin Tiffaney)
bracelets (cousin Fern)
Hickory farms giftbox (Dirty Santa)
Pockey and Orange slice chocolates (Eric's parents)
Scene It Classic Movies (Eric)
Entire Chobits Keychain set (Eric)
Three piece Dragon Ornament Set (Eric)
Iron (Mom and Dad - M&D)
Crockpot (M&D)
Fleece Hoodie (M&D)
3-piece suit (M&D)
Dress Shirt (M&D)
Cats/Dogs bathroom set (sister Brezy)
3-piece luggage set (brother Neil)
Waldenbooks giftcard (brother Dirk)
Blender (M&D)
Dragon waterglobe (Eric)
Dress shirt/pants (Brezy)
Misc giftbag (Neil)
White shelves (M&D)
Fleece blanket (Neil)
Undergarments (Brezy and M&D)
Socks (M&D)
Spongebob lamp (M&D)
Another fleece blanket (Neil)
Gloves, Hat, Scarf set (M&D)
Naruto novel
Entire Fushigi Yugi VHS set (friend Melissa)
Digital Camera (M&D)
Wireless Mouse (M&D)
Inuyasha Movie 4 (Eric)
Trace Memory (Eric)
Final Fantasy III (M&D)
$50.00 WalMart Giftcard (Grandpa Haley)

Believe it or not, there's more to come. I still haven't left to head to SC yet where I'll get a few more goodies. <3

So here's Marci, updating her journal again. I haven't updated this thing since the engagement so here goes nothing.

I've all ready gotten a few Christmas gifts from friends who may not get to see me before the holiday and I have to say, I've liked them both. Fiona got me this cloth jewelry box thing that came with 12 candles inside. I really like it because she gets me interesting things I've never seen before and I like them. And mah Stacy got me this totally awesome Fushigi Yugi artbook, which is now prominently displayed on my manga shelf. ^_^ So yay to Stacy and Fiona! So far, this is shaping up to be a good holiday, and I'm hoping for a fun party on Christmas Eve.

Things have been the same with me. However because of Paypal's ignorance my bank account was overdrafted twice. I won't go into details but for once it wasn't my fault. Lost 60 dollars which annoyed me at first but it's just money. I was still able to pay all of my bills this month so I have calmed down considerably. /le sigh

Eric's mom is making a great effort to try and put things in the past behind her so we won't have a lousy relationship, which is awesome. I can only hope things continue to go on like they have been.

So that's pretty much it.

Merry Christmas everybody!

So I promised you all I would explain how it all went down. The day Eric asked for my hand in marriage...

First he came to my house to pick me up for my birthday lunch. When I went outside to greet him he asked me what Gabriel was doing up in a tree. I looked and looked but I didn't see him anywhere. I had a SMALL feeling that he had something for me, but I didn't want to turn around to see. Then sure enough, he whisked a dozen bright, red roses out in front of me and said "sorry I'm late."

They were so beautiful and perfect. I knew it was a sign for more things to come. Little did I know it would be so memorable.

I showed the flowers to my mom while Eric went downstairs to do something. Shortly after, I followed him down there and he told me to stop while I was still on the stairs. Honestly, I have to say I thought I was getting another present. But when he let me come downstairs I discovered a trail of Hershey's Kisses leading to my room. I followed them to my room where I saw Eric smiling at me. Then he said:

"Now that I've kissed the ground you walk on, will you be mine?"

I asked him what he meant by that because it sounded like a proposal almost. He then responded "Will you be mine for today?" I agreed, and then we got ready to go.

We went out to Olive Garden to eat and as much as Eric tried to hide it, the birthday card he got for me fell out of his pocket twice. ^_^ So he gave it to me when we sat down to eat. It was such a romantic and beautiful card and it seemed to speak very closely to what Eric felt. I loved it and was having the absolute best birthday of all time.

Then we went to the mall where Eric first told me he loved me. He pointed at the Customer Service desk and asked if that was always there and I turned around to look at it. I studied it, seeming to think it was a bigger counter than it used to be then turned back around. He asked me for a kiss for old time's sake and I was happy to oblige. He pressed his lips against mine and I felt something cold... enter my mouth.... and metal.

I took it out and looked at it in total shock. A ring. He took the ring from me and knelt down in front of all those people shopping on a Saturday night and asked:

"Will you marry me and be my perfect angel for all eternity?"

I nodded, tears starting to form in my eyes and said "of course I will!" Then I buried my face into his chest and cried and cried.

Then we proceeded to buy manga! <3 <3

So there you guys go! If you want to see the same story through Eric's eyes, he wrote it in his latest LJ entry. Username Ramakun.

Just so all of you gals and guys know...

Eric asked me to marry him and I said yes!!!!!

It was so sweet, he brought me a dozen red roses and everything. Will go into more deatil about it next entry.

Loves and hugs!

Christmas is coming.

Things have been so busy and chaotic lately. I've barely had time to really think about things. But yet, I find time as one must learn to do when faced with busy things. My biggest goal is "The Singing." I can't really go into deatil yet, but it is the most important thing I need to accomplish someday. Along with starting and finishing my apprenticeship.

Things at work are a lot better than they were two weeks ago. Things are finally coming together and I'm finding out that taking an hour for lunch is pretty friggin awesome. Kristi has been pretty much my voice of reason when it comes to me being frustrated about things and the messes we get left over after Sara works. We're doing good, but there's still a lot to be pushed so we can make sure everyone is doing everything right.

I feel really good lately. Christmas is coming up and it is absolutely one of my favorite holidays of all time. Eric and I have bought for over twenty-five people this year and I'm trying to squeeze some more people onto the list but funds are tight this year. So my RL friends, please don't expect too much from me since I'm not working a full time job! Eric's been getting onto me about spending money I don't have but when it comes to Christmas I can't help myself. I love love love buying awesome gifts for other people. I SO get into the Christmas cheer. *^_^*

Just to be bringing it up for the hell of it I will be twenty-one in seven days. Both my brother AND my sister asked me if I wanted to go out and get drunk. -_- Um no... that is SO not my thing. It's kind of annoying for them to ask but I don't think my brother was too serious about it. Eric is going to take me to Olive Garden for some good eating and I feel very glad about that because I don't think we've ever actually done something like that for my birthday. This'll be my third birthday with him too! Wow I can't believe we're going on three years all ready. Time has just flown by.

Right now I'm at a good point in my life and I'm hoping things will start turning better so I can begin building for my future. I need some cash to move out but I must must must have a full time job!! Let's go district manager Tammy! Marci needs 30+ hours!!

Love you guys a whole ton!!!!!!!!

So today was one of the worst days in a good while. When I got to the store, I discovered that not only were we not really ready to open, but the register wasn't even working right and there were a million things that were left undone! At first, it wasn't a big deal. I figured, we'd all just have to work really hard and try to get everything done that we needed to and everything would work out. That's the optimist in me and I was ready to get things rolling. Kind of. It took me a little while to get started because I was just a little draggy this morning. But after Dave got me to get started on fixing some frames to modular, things went better.

Got that done. Started to work on accessories. In comes the customers.

They wanted their prescriptions located and filled. No problem, I thought, but when I went through the boxes to find some some were mysteriously not there anymore. So I had to explain why that was to a lot of people. And I had to explain that WalMart was not National Vision, so the policies and regulations were different. Most people were okay with it all. Some were highly pissed. I got stressed out and upset and I kind of broke down a teeny bit.

There was a guy working on the cash register yesterday and whenever he looked really stressed, I would flash him a smile and tell him he was doing a FINE job. And when he saw me trying my hardest not to cry and be upset today he said "hey. You're doing a FINE job." That guy rocked and made me feel a bit better.

Things went a lot smoother after that and I got everything to work and made a hundred trips to the back of WalMart to get rid of trash from the millions of boxes we were unpacking. It was a crazy mess. But the day went by fast.

I had one cool customer who said that his experience in our store was kind of lousy the last year and a half but he said that because of me (after I waited on him and was super polite) he would stick around a little bit longer. He said he was thinking about going somewhere else. So I'm glad I helped someone elses day go better.

OH! I did have luch with Elisha yesterday and it was awesome. I'm glad we got a chance to catch up and we're actually making plans again. Just thought I'd let you guys know that that was going on as well.

Whew! Here's hoping things slow down and get back to normal... whatever that really is.

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In July I gave saber_fang_wolf a Dutch Oven (-10 points). Last Monday I gave change to a homeless guy (19 points). In June I ate my brussel sprouts (1 points). In January I caught a purse-snatcher who stole evai's purse (30 points). In August I saved a busload of nuns in Angola (326 points). Overall, I've been nice (366 points). For Christmas I deserve a Wii! Sincerely, marziepan

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